[20180618] 演員 Will Wheaton 分享他面對慢性憂鬱和焦慮的體驗

My name is Wil Wheaton. I Live With Chronic Depression and Generalized Anxiety. I Am Not Ashamed.

By Wil Wheaton @Medium

(本次介紹的文章爲 Wil Wheaton 在 NAMI (National Alliance of Mental Illness) 演講的文字版)

Wil Wheaton 是個童星,最出名的代表作大概是 Star Trek: The Next Generation (飾演 Wesley Crusher) 和 Big Bang Theory(飾演他自己)。(編者其實不太熟悉他在 Big Bang Theory 之前的作品)。他成爲童星之前就已經有嚴重的焦慮症狀,後來更因爲來自導演、制作人、經紀人、甚至自己父母的壓力,而發展出了憂鬱症狀。

其實 Wheaton 家族本身就有精神疾病的遺傳,有多起成功或未遂的自殺、躁鬱症、憂鬱症、和嚴重酗酒的情況,但他的父母還是沒有意識到自己的孩子得了精神疾病,只認爲他只是意識到 “世界是個很可怕的地方” 而適應不良:

“You’re just realizing that the world is a scary place,” she said.

Wheaton 認爲部分原因是由於整個社會對精神疾病採取的是忽視、甚至蔑視的態度,普遍的想法是精神疾病是 “別人才有” 的東西,而且是因爲他們 “做了某些事” 才會得到,因此精神病患者應該覺得羞恥。(編按:卡提諾狂新聞上經常提到一些行爲異常人士,個人覺得有些很可能只是罹患了精神疾病,但是狂新聞選擇去嘲笑或鄙視他們、而不是同情或幫助他們。)

一直到 Wheaton 34 歲的時候,他才在妻子的鼓勵下尋求專業協助,從此他終於感覺自己是在 “生活”,而不是單純的 “存在”:

And as we were walking I just started to cry and she asked me, “what’s wrong?”

I said “I just realized that I don’t feel bad and I just realized that I’m not existing, I’m living.”

他希望經過將精神疾病去污名花,能夠讓更多像他一樣受精神疾病所苦的小孩子得到應有的幫助:

Right now, there is a child somewhere who has the same panic attacks I had, and their parents aren’t getting them help, because they believe it reflects poorly on their parenting to have a child with mental illness.

他也希望建立社會安全網,讓沒有經濟能力的精神疾病患者也能受到治療 (這也是 NAMI 的目標):

No person anywhere, especially here in the richest country in the world, should live in the shadows or suffer alone, because they can’t afford treatment. We have all the money in the world for weapons and corporate tax cuts, so I know that we can afford to prioritize not just health care in general, but mental health care, specifically.

最後,受到精神疾病所苦的人們也應該盡量多分享自己的經歷,唯有這樣才能讓其他人更願意面對自己或家人的疾病,有勇氣尋求外界的幫助:

Finally, we who live with mental illness need to talk about it, because our friends and neighbors know us and trust us. It’s one thing for me to stand here and tell you that you’re not alone in this fight, but it’s something else entirely for you to prove it. We need to share our experiences, so someone who is suffering the way I was won’t feel weird or broken or ashamed or afraid to seek treatment. So that parents don’t feel like they have failed or somehow screwed up when they see symptoms in their kids.

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